Am I an alcoholic? Part 2

First glass down. Pouring the second. Still carefully estimating how much I want - taste-wise.

I'm comfortable now. The telly is good and it's making me feel warm inside now. Or is that the vodka. Doesn't matter I'm happy - that's whats important. Not why. I just am. I'm happy and I'm safe and I'm comfortable.

Content.

My mind slows down. Bliss. All that's going on is my hand movements from glass to face and enjoying the mindless entertainment on the TV. I needed this. This is my escape.

I didn't feel like I needed to escape. But when I do, escape, I realize how much I needed it.

Second glass down. Pouring the third. Little more Vodka now this time. The first two built me up and I can handle a bit more taste in the glass now. And it's high time I stepped the drunk up a notch. Everything is funnier then anyway and I want to have a good night.

Gonna go on Facebook and have a nosey and what's going on. More mindless entertaniment - exactly what I need. And I know when I go on Facebook with a few drinks I'll speak to people I wouldn't normally sober. I like that though because it's good to keep in touch. I'm always more emotional with a few drinks. That's good though it's important. I'm glad I can be that person. With a few drinks. I could probably be that person without a few drinks, but I wouldn't enjoy it as much.

There's a little pang from my bladder. I'll ignore it for a little bit. Don't want to break the seal just yet. There's plenty more liquids to come! And besides, the first time standing up since sitting down and feeling how drunk I am is a little highlight of the night. Lets me know I'm doing it right. The getting drunk and relaxing. I'm good at that. But I'm not drunk enough yet to stand up and feel it so I'll wait until I am. That reminds me. Pour the 4th. Make it a large. Lets get hammered. I wanna sway to that bathroom.

My night is a balanced mix of laughing, pouring, joking on facebook, drinking and weeing. It's 1am. I still have vodka left, that's good. I hate when I officially finish a bottle. I like to say - "I didn't drink a full bottle are you crazy, look there's loads left in that".

Anyway, the telly's gone boring, I'm starting to feel a little sick. Gonna hit the sack. I'll just have another little drink before I go up. I like this shopping channel. It's my favorite.

To be continued