Am I an alcoholic? Part 1

It's Friday afternoon and I'm in work. It's after lunch and I settle back into my afternoon tasks.

I can't wait to go home and get drunk. Seriously drunk. I want to go home, have a shower, get into my lounge-wear, sit on the couch, turn the TV on and have a Vodka.

Come on 5pm. I need to get home. I hope the bus gets through the traffic quickly today. I can feel the craving getting stronger. Damn it, why did I think about this so soon!

I really shouldn't drink tonight. I want to go out tomorrow night for that birthday party. I'm looking forward to it - I don't want to be hungover at it. I'll just have a couple when I get home to take the edge off.

I get home and put the bottle of Vodka and the bottle of Coke on the counter in the kitchen and say 'See ye soon'. Did I actually just say that to inanimate objects? Yes I did and I do it all the time so don't pretend to be shocked by it. And don't call them inanimate - you'll hurt their feelings. Sorry, Love you.

Jump in the shower, get into something comfortable. Do whatever little bits need doing in the house. I don't want anything nagging me to be done while I'm having my drink. The first sip initiates the start of my blissful evening and the end of my working day/week. All done, All clean and fresh - I'll sit down now.

I'll keep the bottle of Vodka and the bottle of Coke beside me. I don't want to have to get up unless I really need to. I don't need ice. I've learned not to like it - takes up too much room in the glass.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhh. There it is. That first sip. Instant Relief. The week washes away in that second. I can also tell from that first sip just how drunk I may or may not be tonight. I'll have another sip now, bigger than the first and I'll let that sit in my mouth for a few seconds before I swallow it.

It's on now. Another sigh of relief.

I'll have a flick through the TV channels, deciding what I want to watch for this evenings entertainment. I hate not having a seamless flow of entertainment. It can ruin my buzz sometimes. I HATE that.

Ah good - I love this show! Sit back, take another big sup. Ooooooh yes that's nice.

I'm home now.

-To Be Continued -